Crappy titles. Tsskk. SMH.
Day Two.
This time I woke up with a slightly happy atmosphere. Considering the fact that I discovered a new channel when i was flickering through the 50+ channels over and over again. Guess what channel it was.. Its only the most E!ntertaining channel Evah! It's E! Which i totally lovelovelove. It was strangely on channel 4 but heck! what do i care which number its aired on. I just love E! Because of course, It has the best reality shows known in this generation. (lol. Sorry Mtv!) It has like, Keeping Up With The Kardashians,Khloe and Lamar, Kim and Kourtney take miami, Julianna and Bill and the list goes on and on. Just about every shows thats making a buzz in the Entertainment world. Its funny how I have this thing for reality shows. Hahaha. I dunno why I like it so much! Probably because of the drama and the celebrities showcasing the life i could never have. Hahaha. But wait.. I wouldn't be blogging about this if I didn't experience such horrible stuffs yesterday.
Just when I thought I would be watching tv for the whole day to keep me alive, Someone proved me wrong. When I took a little "Break" from watching tv (Went to get food) Someone switched it to a different channel! There goes my last chance of surviving. I was so mad that i ate all day. That wouldn't have been a problem if I was physically fit like really really fit but of course I'm not. I'm in between average medium and large ? I guess ? But I can't tell because critics are the one who can tell me. It all comes down to realizing that this year i would be a junior meaning I get to go to the prom and be active in a lot of things (Projects and all that stuffs) And there I was eating like i haven't eat. I effing ate every two hours!
EVERY. TWO. EFFING. HOURS!
I could tell that i have gained a lot of pounds this summer and I predict a fat ass girl in her prom the next coming year (That would be me, Obviously). Well.. There is still time left to starve myself. BAHAHAHAHA. Ridiculous. Not gonna happen. Honey, I'm married to FOOD.
6:15ish pm I slept after rereading Peter Pan by J.M. Barrie and woke up about 9:45ish pm to watch today show which airs via satellite switching channels every now and then to watch pbb too. Out of the blues, I felt.. I felt Lonely. Like I was the only girl in the world and that I'm in a fragile state. I tried to shrug it off but it didn't went away. All the negative thoughts popped out of my mind and every single thing that i don't wanna remember flashed and decided to hang out for a bit in my mind. Nobody was texting me and if someone did, it would probably be Group Messages from my friends or the text clan I joined. My mom is gone for few days to attend a seminar or something and she will be back in 3 days or so. My sister was well.. Never mind. She gives me headache. It was just a random feeling to.. feel. Is this what internet makes you feel without it or is it just me? Was I going mad? The questions were unanswered of course.
I thought being bored was something to be frantic about but I guess nothing beats loneliness and sadness.